2d@y

"Testimonial" written during the leadership camp at Pasir Lanun.

It was fun and all... a bit horrible at some parts... but emm... I'm just not really the leader type at the moment...

2d@y

random painting~

this... was something....
"You owe me something..."

very fast and random... and not very nice couple drawing...

wanted to color it... still waiting~ XDD

Draw this at school~

Also from school~~~

Cold

"Didn't you say you're working today?" She asked with little strength in her voice.

"Nah." He answered without looking at her. He continued drinking beer. It was his thirtieth can.

And the final blow.

She took her luggage and went out of the house. Closing the door quietly. That will be the last time. She's never coming back.

She went to a place she left 4 years ago. The house she bought for herself after she got her job.

She took the old key out of her pocket and unlocked the door in front of her. Everything was still in place, the same as 4 years ago. The cleaner she hired kept the place spotless too.

Putting her luggage aside, she sat on the soft carpet and felt the fabric with her hands. It warmed her hands that were so cold.

Right now, she just wanted to forget him. She wanted to erase the memories with him.

He's changed. He isn't himself anymore. Day by day, he lives life on his sofa, drinking beer and talking nonsenses. She tried helping him, she really tried... but the bruises... she had endured... no, it wasn't a life she wanted... not with him... not with the monster now...

She hated him, despised the monster he is now...

Her heart hurts as the memories of them together flashed in front of her.

She still loved him...

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seeing the successful people
so many people going further away
improving themselves
you doubted
as you stayed in the same position
are you giving your best?
is it worth it?
is this what you want?
or you have never thought about it?
questions arises
and
you couldn't utter a word
not anymore
in the past
it was easier to deceive
as time passes
you come closer to where you are heading
but now
you just felt lost
because
deep down
inside
the answer has always be blur
always
feeling down is what you could do
but it never solves anything
that's what you say to yourself and everyone else
but what can you do
keep on rushing forward
like what you're expected to do?
you're tired of it already
but you do not have the courage to admit it
to yourself
and to the people around you

2d@y

multi-task is not really my thing huh...

not focusing on the task at hand
even abandoning it
are you even as responsible as you think?
just leaving it there...
do you not feel the irresponsibility?
you do not
somehow
a part of you is now cold
and you just don't know how to save yourself
not anymore

what to do?