2d@y

**warning: bad post/ranting post**

should stop all these activities huh?
as much as you want to
a part of you just feel that it's so wrong
this feeling
it becomes worse
when people start talking about a realistic life
you don't know what you're doing anymore
you want to cry your whole heart out
not cause you want to cry
but because you are looking for someone to comfort you
it's like using people
how horrid could you be?
as fun as it looked
inside
you wonder
is this what you really want?
you know you're just not the natural
when it comes to
social
you try your best to mingle
did you really try?
awkwardness
never leaves you
you know it
ever since who knows when
what he said was true
what she said was true
that
that phobia
towards what?
strangers?
people?
life?
what are you doing here?