2d@y

*Warning: rant* :P

that feeling when you ask yourself
who are you?
and
you couldn't answer yourself

a simple question
yet
you couldn't even utter a word

what are you doing?
you asked yourself
everyday

living life?
yet
when you look back
to yesterday
you know you did nothing
now
nothing
where are you heading?
you can't even give yourself an idea

this shouldn't happen huh?

you've told yourself so many times
where you want to go
but is it the truth?

you know the answer
whether you are lying to yourself or not
you know
but would you admit it?

trying to get inspiration from people
what's the point already?
you've tried so many times
and it took you less than a week to tumble back to where you were

goalless impatient laziness
these are what you are doing
where is that spirit?
then again
you were told so many times that you're not a competitive one
you wouldn't mind losing
but what's the point of living if you have nothing to aim for?

you're not as mature you think you are
inside you're still that hardheaded naive child
when are you going to learn?