After One Week Of Working

I did this for about one hour (not sure)
Totally random...
Today I don't need to work,
Finally a day at home after a week
But I don't know what to do
Suddenly I've got nothing, no schedule
I slept for a few hours late
After a meal,
I slept again
What am I going to do??
I don't want to be unhealthy!!
Help......
I can't control myself......

Haha

Year-end holiday , starts... now

Today would be my... fifth day of my first job. My friends and I went to find a job after the last exam paper. Actually there was suppose to be only two of us, but we didn't know where is the starting point, so we asked another friend to help us. She was more experienced and we were like umm.....I don't know, like the first time we learn to walk, having someone to guide us. Haha.

Well, I ended up getting a job at the clothing department and Ngoh got a job at the bags'. What I need to do is fold the messy shirts, blouses, pants... and of course, stand and not sit for at least 5 hours. I was really lucky as the promoters around me were friendly and helpful, I've got nothing to say. Well, except that my feet hurts me the next day. But I still need to go on, rite? I mean if I can't even stand 5 hours of work, what can I do? I have nearly zero talent, no skills!

Now that a quarter of my time is on my part-time job, I have less time on household chores. But my siblings! They don't even want to move if I don't tell them to. Arg.... I feel like stranggling myself sometimes because I took a job. There's so much to do at home, but I want to go out there and learn something. I want to overcome my phobia. I knew, even since I was in primary school that I have a problem in socialising, my father also told me. When talking to someone, I would always look downwards and never face them, which is very rude. I want to overcome this problem, so that I wouldn't be nagged (Haha) and can talk to other people confidently, not giving them bad impressions.

Well, another 1.5 month to go, Gambate!
Sweetie... I miss you... Hope we can meet again soon!
Love you.

2-1=... (?_?) --> : ( -->(T_T)

Finally, the last day of the week, also a time to take a breath from the school year examination. I gotta say, it's been really tough going through this week. So many things happened, well, that's what I think.

It is always tough for us to stuff all the things that we need to memorize, cracking our brain to fit those vocabularies, definitions, formulas, phrases... ... But this time, I think I was emotionally out of control! Not mentally, that one I can still control, but emotionally, no way. I was nearly mad! Two days before the exam, something happened in school and somehow, I cried. I don't know why, but I was teary then I just couldn't stop. It was so embarrassing! In front of my friends. Well, of course I got a small scolding. Hehe...

I think it got even worst the next day. I was at home and doing revision. Another thing happened and the tap water started to run again. This time it took me 30 minutes to calm myself down. Soon, I started to have weird thoughts, I'll say that no one should know what they are. It was like I was soulless! I was scared, every single minute was so dark. The other thing is that I just can't study, I know I'll be blamed because it was just me not wanting to motivate myself. But I just couldn't! I was going bazookas!

Let's just say that I opened the tap water nearly everyday of the week (Only for last week!). My eyes were always painful the next day, o silly me... ...

But from today, I think I can close the water tap.