depressing. prepare yourself or skip~ ; P
really want to vent... everything in my head.... it's tiring to think about these things... just tiring... that it makes you feel crazy *imagine House MD putting himself in a mental hospital* really feel like doing that now. Yeah, it's comical in a depressed way, or is it the other way? I tried, I really tried to make myself happy... but how long can it last? I'm just tired. Yeah, seeing so many 'I' in here... I feel so selfish. I know that. All the things that you "could have done a long time ago" It's horrifying to face the darn truth. I know, I've not done my best. I know, I don't want to face the truth. What should I do? It's stupid. Yes, you've used the word you don't want to use. You're that lost and dark at the moment that you feel like you want to knock yourself in the head... until you bleed... Why are you using 'you' now? What does that mean? You are still not admitting to the true reality that hits you? I don't know... not anymore... fear, anger, depressed... these are the things you keep inside. Because you tell yourself that people don't need to know. They can't do anything about it. Why bother telling? Why make them worry? Why share the dark feeling? Might as well leave it there because it'll disappear somehow. Is that how you really feel? Really? Cause now you're writing what you always call dark. Just the feeling, the thought of yourself facing people actually make you terrified. What is going on with you? Is talking to strangers hard? Is telling people what you feel hard? It's terrifying. You say in your head. Yet you tell people, yeah, it's no problem. We just have to get used to it. Thinking about how you could be like that... now you feel like a mad person. How is it possible that you can be so thick skinned at times and so fragile at other times? It doesn't make any sense. It doesn't... What the hell is rational anymore....
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Life Of A Saturn's Agent: Kidnapper!
He walked towards the door, heart thumping faster. He wondered why was he nervous. After all, he's been into that room for so many times for all the wrong reasons. Why would this time be any different? It's the same rite? Get into a fight, get caught, get scolded and get detention. What's there to be afraid of him? Wait... what was the discipline officer's name again?
He went in, steps getting heavier and heavier.
"Phie, I've been waiting for you." The discipline officer said calmly with a small smile. Phie couldn't figure out what was that expression about.
He bowed cautiously and later sat down in the chair in front of the officer's desk.
"So, Phie, want some purple tea?" The officer asked and poured a cup for Phie before he could refuse it.
"Thank you." He said in a low tone. He still can't understand why he's being called into the office since he wasn't in a fight and the officer is acting... pretty kind today. Or... is he getting kicked out? Or is this officer a fake? Who wants to kidnap him? He's gotta escape!
"Tell me, Phie" The officer was right in front of him, not behind the table. Directly in front of him.
"How long have you been here?"
"Umm... about 4 years?" He stuttered. Was he going to be kidnapped?! He have to dash towards the exit. But the officer is just a few inches away, how do you get away from that??
"Hmm... how many assignment and report have you completed?" The officer asked again.
"Uh... " he pretended to count with his fingers while looking for another way out. His eyes were scanning the area, looking for a way of escape.
"Phie?" The officer called his name as he was taking too long to answer such a simple question.
"Uh.. um..." He looked at the officer. The officer had questioning eyes looking at him. What is going on with this trainee?
Without a word mentioned, Phie punched the officer in the face and ran towards the exit. As he got out of the room, he shouted for help and 2 other officers with worried looks came down the corridor.
"Sir! There's a kidnapper in there! Help! Help!" Phie shouted while holding onto the door knob to stop the kidnapper from getting out.
"Boy, this better not be another trick!" The officer in green said sternly. She knew this trainee was one of the trickiest kid in this place.
"No! Ma'am Jloi! I swear! There's a kidnapper!" Phie shouted desperately.
The two officers pulled Phie to the back as they opened the door, anticipating an attack of some sort.
But out came the same officer with a very bloody face because of Phie's punch.
"Phie! What the purple tea are you doing!?" The discipline officer was raging as Phie imagined smoke coming out of his ears.
"Djie, are you okay? The kidnapper hit you?" Jloi asked while the other officer went in the office to check.
"What kidnapper? I was just going to tell this kid over here, Phie! That he's been upgraded to a lab director and he gave me this punch." Djie shouted while wiping away the blood.
"False alarm" Jloi said to the other officer and grabbed Phie by the collar to stop him from escaping. Phie couldn't do anything but to give a dry, embarrassing laugh at the bloody-faced Djie.
He went in, steps getting heavier and heavier.
"Phie, I've been waiting for you." The discipline officer said calmly with a small smile. Phie couldn't figure out what was that expression about.
He bowed cautiously and later sat down in the chair in front of the officer's desk.
"So, Phie, want some purple tea?" The officer asked and poured a cup for Phie before he could refuse it.
"Thank you." He said in a low tone. He still can't understand why he's being called into the office since he wasn't in a fight and the officer is acting... pretty kind today. Or... is he getting kicked out? Or is this officer a fake? Who wants to kidnap him? He's gotta escape!
"Tell me, Phie" The officer was right in front of him, not behind the table. Directly in front of him.
"How long have you been here?"
"Umm... about 4 years?" He stuttered. Was he going to be kidnapped?! He have to dash towards the exit. But the officer is just a few inches away, how do you get away from that??
"Hmm... how many assignment and report have you completed?" The officer asked again.
"Uh... " he pretended to count with his fingers while looking for another way out. His eyes were scanning the area, looking for a way of escape.
"Phie?" The officer called his name as he was taking too long to answer such a simple question.
"Uh.. um..." He looked at the officer. The officer had questioning eyes looking at him. What is going on with this trainee?
Without a word mentioned, Phie punched the officer in the face and ran towards the exit. As he got out of the room, he shouted for help and 2 other officers with worried looks came down the corridor.
"Sir! There's a kidnapper in there! Help! Help!" Phie shouted while holding onto the door knob to stop the kidnapper from getting out.
"Boy, this better not be another trick!" The officer in green said sternly. She knew this trainee was one of the trickiest kid in this place.
"No! Ma'am Jloi! I swear! There's a kidnapper!" Phie shouted desperately.
The two officers pulled Phie to the back as they opened the door, anticipating an attack of some sort.
But out came the same officer with a very bloody face because of Phie's punch.
"Phie! What the purple tea are you doing!?" The discipline officer was raging as Phie imagined smoke coming out of his ears.
"Djie, are you okay? The kidnapper hit you?" Jloi asked while the other officer went in the office to check.
"What kidnapper? I was just going to tell this kid over here, Phie! That he's been upgraded to a lab director and he gave me this punch." Djie shouted while wiping away the blood.
"False alarm" Jloi said to the other officer and grabbed Phie by the collar to stop him from escaping. Phie couldn't do anything but to give a dry, embarrassing laugh at the bloody-faced Djie.
Friday, November 23, 2012
Life Of A Saturn's Agent: Miss You
I just got out of a meeting with the agents and officers. It was... well... kinda nice since there was a fight between two of the officers. It was quite funny, really. Two of them fisting and pulling hairs and scolding each other. The other people couldn't do anything since the two were the seniors in the agency. In the end, they fought until they were too tired and the meeting ended just like that. O yes, I nearly forgot. We have to do some research on how carbonated drinks can be made into vegetables. That should be a nice one. I'm going to drag Chaehyun to help me with this.
"Meow Woof Chirp Meow Woof Chirp..." My phone rang and I answered it.
"Mum?" I asked after hearing a lady's voice through the phone.
"Yes my darling. How are you?" Her voice happy and sweet.
"I'm okay. How's Venus?" She went there 2 years ago, saying it was a vacation. But... isn't 2 years a little long for a vacation?
"It's lovely! Lovely indeed. I'm being treated like a queen. The people here are just lovely! And you know, I found these beautiful shoes they made from colored air. So soft and light. It's really comfy for my feet too. And I got you a pair too. With purple and pink and blue color. They change color and sparkle..."
Mother talked a lot. I guess she's really happy having fun there.
"... and Triel, you know, they have cloud made sofas and beds... and the glass made frying pan... ~eow~ Triel, your peacock flower misses you so much! Where are you?" Mother suddenly changed her tone.
"Please help me take care of her awhile? I've been busy lately..." I really do miss her... but I can't take care of her now. See, I came to this agency without telling mother. She thought that I'm still in Pluto, maybe doing some spring cleaning or some kind of experiment.
"O~ Okay. But she's a bit playful. It's hard if she's let out of my sight even for just awhile. She gets lost very easily here. Rite? ~chirp~" My mother said worriedly while my lovely flower answered... and it made me feel so guilty...
"Thanks mum. Just for another 2 weeks? Please?" I asked her to take care of my precious flower, just 2 more weeks and my beautiful flower will come back to me.
"Okay darling. I have to go. I've got another call. Bye bye darling." She ended the call as I chuckled to myself at how mother is so adorable.
"Triel." Someone called my name and I turned around.
"CHAEHYUN!!!!" I screamed while she gave me big, terrified eyes.
"You... scared me." She laughed after I apologized.
"Really sorry. It's just that I missed you so much!"
"Free now? Lunch?" She asked and I nodded continuously.
"You're going to pull a muscle like that." We both laughed as we headed out of the office building and went to a restaurant that sells exotic food from Mercury.
"Meow Woof Chirp Meow Woof Chirp..." My phone rang and I answered it.
"Mum?" I asked after hearing a lady's voice through the phone.
"Yes my darling. How are you?" Her voice happy and sweet.
"I'm okay. How's Venus?" She went there 2 years ago, saying it was a vacation. But... isn't 2 years a little long for a vacation?
"It's lovely! Lovely indeed. I'm being treated like a queen. The people here are just lovely! And you know, I found these beautiful shoes they made from colored air. So soft and light. It's really comfy for my feet too. And I got you a pair too. With purple and pink and blue color. They change color and sparkle..."
Mother talked a lot. I guess she's really happy having fun there.
"... and Triel, you know, they have cloud made sofas and beds... and the glass made frying pan... ~eow~ Triel, your peacock flower misses you so much! Where are you?" Mother suddenly changed her tone.
"Please help me take care of her awhile? I've been busy lately..." I really do miss her... but I can't take care of her now. See, I came to this agency without telling mother. She thought that I'm still in Pluto, maybe doing some spring cleaning or some kind of experiment.
"O~ Okay. But she's a bit playful. It's hard if she's let out of my sight even for just awhile. She gets lost very easily here. Rite? ~chirp~" My mother said worriedly while my lovely flower answered... and it made me feel so guilty...
"Thanks mum. Just for another 2 weeks? Please?" I asked her to take care of my precious flower, just 2 more weeks and my beautiful flower will come back to me.
"Okay darling. I have to go. I've got another call. Bye bye darling." She ended the call as I chuckled to myself at how mother is so adorable.
"Triel." Someone called my name and I turned around.
"CHAEHYUN!!!!" I screamed while she gave me big, terrified eyes.
"You... scared me." She laughed after I apologized.
"Really sorry. It's just that I missed you so much!"
"Free now? Lunch?" She asked and I nodded continuously.
"You're going to pull a muscle like that." We both laughed as we headed out of the office building and went to a restaurant that sells exotic food from Mercury.
Thursday, November 22, 2012
Life Of A Saturn's Agent: Come Out~
She was wearing a tank top and shorts while her hair was in a mess. Her eyes were scanning through the room. There were papers scattered all around the room.
"This... is a mess... Triel, you fail at tidying." She nagged at herself while her hands were busy taking the papers and arranging them into a pile.
"Triel?" Someone called from outside and Triel quickly put on a loose t-shirt and tied her hair before opening the door.
"Hi, Taylb." She smiled until her eyes couldn't be seen.
"What are you doing?" He asked, bewildered at her very, very happy expression.
"Nothing. Just cleaning up the room. Anything going on?" Triel smiled her best.
"There's a meeting later... You forgot huh?" Taylb saw the shock in Triel's face.
"Anyway, just remember the time and be there." Taylb sighed.
"Okay!" Triel said and showed the okay sign.
"Wait, how's the progress of the report?" Taylb asked and stared at Triel.
"It's coming through... Don't worry." Triel said casually.
"Make sure it's on my table in 2 hours." Taylb said and left her standing at her door.
Triel closed the door calmly and continued her search through the pile of papers like a crazy kitty.
"Shoot! Where is that report! Come out! Wait..." She suddenly stopped and just stood there.
Triel slapped herself thrice.
1. Don't use shoot!
2.Tidy the room!
3. Don't use shoot.
"Come out~" Triel called out the report like it was a kitten. She couldn't remember where did she put the report she took hours to make.
She chuckled to herself. She's going to go mad huh? Really? Over a few papers?
"HAHAHAHAHAHA......" She laughed loudly while lying down on the floor.
After laughing until she's tired, she finally stopped and continued looking through the files on the shelf.
Alas... the report wasn't there. She sat on the floor, thinking really really hard while looking at her room.
"Bed." She said to herself and scurried to the bed. She flipped it and there it was. The report under her bed. She had used it to support her back since the bed is too soft for her. You see, in Pluto, she had no bed and slept on the ground under the stars.
"This... is a mess... Triel, you fail at tidying." She nagged at herself while her hands were busy taking the papers and arranging them into a pile.
"Triel?" Someone called from outside and Triel quickly put on a loose t-shirt and tied her hair before opening the door.
"Hi, Taylb." She smiled until her eyes couldn't be seen.
"What are you doing?" He asked, bewildered at her very, very happy expression.
"Nothing. Just cleaning up the room. Anything going on?" Triel smiled her best.
"There's a meeting later... You forgot huh?" Taylb saw the shock in Triel's face.
"Anyway, just remember the time and be there." Taylb sighed.
"Okay!" Triel said and showed the okay sign.
"Wait, how's the progress of the report?" Taylb asked and stared at Triel.
"It's coming through... Don't worry." Triel said casually.
"Make sure it's on my table in 2 hours." Taylb said and left her standing at her door.
Triel closed the door calmly and continued her search through the pile of papers like a crazy kitty.
"Shoot! Where is that report! Come out! Wait..." She suddenly stopped and just stood there.
Triel slapped herself thrice.
1. Don't use shoot!
2.Tidy the room!
3. Don't use shoot.
"Come out~" Triel called out the report like it was a kitten. She couldn't remember where did she put the report she took hours to make.
She chuckled to herself. She's going to go mad huh? Really? Over a few papers?
"HAHAHAHAHAHA......" She laughed loudly while lying down on the floor.
After laughing until she's tired, she finally stopped and continued looking through the files on the shelf.
Alas... the report wasn't there. She sat on the floor, thinking really really hard while looking at her room.
"Bed." She said to herself and scurried to the bed. She flipped it and there it was. The report under her bed. She had used it to support her back since the bed is too soft for her. You see, in Pluto, she had no bed and slept on the ground under the stars.
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
20121121 Letter To That Drunk
You there? Are ya still drinking that horrible bitter juice? Eh? What are you thinking? That you can drown your pain and suffering through that bitter juice? It's that easy? Where are you living? You're not living alone here, why do that to yourself and make people worry?? You still have your lovely garden of cute sweet jumping peacock flower to take care of. You love her to bits rite? Such an adorable creature. With rainbow colored feathers, the beautiful sparkling blue eyes, the melodic singing voice... You brought her up with so much love, you love her so much. Now go back home and rest. Stop these bitter juice drowning. Your lovely peacock flower need you. And I'm sure she'll make you happy too. Go home.
Saturday, November 17, 2012
20121118 Letter to self
As I sit here with the laptop in front of me, as well as the pengajian am notes. My mind is bombarded with very... interesting thoughts. Happy thoughts. It's as if... this exam that I'll be facing is just a tiny obstacle... like it's just another obstacle that I can face. Somehow this confidence just appeared today... maybe it's just me being gullible me, or like someone told me... maybe I've found something more valuable in life. I'll try to give my best for this exam, regardless of the results. Maybe I'm just that naive that I am able to trap myself in an unrealistic way. Or that I'm a hidden carefree person, a freeman. I don't know. I may not even ever going to find a right answer to that question: "who are you?" I may be getting very far away from my original route, but maybe it's for the best? Maybe me being selfish is an actual way to building my confidence? I've always know, I lack self esteem. Being down when I feel that I've fail, being proud when I've achieved something even so tiny. I let my emotions towards a certain event control my level of confidence. Because of ties to these events, so-called responsibilities towards people in my life, I constantly lose myself. Being emotionally tied instead of being rational towards my heart. Doing the right thing may not always be right. Decisions in life isn't always about the rational way, or the emotional way. It's always a balance of both. Yes, at times, you should be deciding rationally. But there are times where you should be following your emotions, your sixth sense. Because, when we think back, we may feel that we are right, or sometimes feel guilty for making the "wrong choices". But what's been done has been done. Just believe in yourself. Everything will be alright in the end. Everything will be alright.
Friday, November 16, 2012
Life Of A Saturn's Agent: My Story
"What's your story?" The monitor in front of me asked.
Umm... not very sociable. I used to live in Pluto alone. Then... I... love reading, but nothing specific, just any book that interests me... I'm good at doing doodles. I love math too. I'm not very good at sports, lacking in agility. Clumsy at times. I have a wide range of ideas when it comes to logical nonsense. Okay, I try my best in doing it. I have a twin sister who's from mars but she's now a researcher on Earth. I've done different jobs on Saturn. Starting from delivering magazines, then onto selling fabrics and after that, working in a canteen. I don't have a specific stable job at the moment. I know that I'm still inexperienced and needed a lot more. So, I decided to join this secret agency. They took me in as a trainee and I met other trainees. We became very close. Although it's only a short while, we bonded very nicely. But we all have to go our separate ways someday right? So... they were promoted as agents and sent to different galaxies. I'm still here training, hoping that someday, I can go out on a mission as a highly skilled agent.
"Triel! What are you doing?" A high level agent approached me as I quickly exited the program.
"Hi Taylb...Nothing." I gave a smile.
"You were playing around with the talk-to-me program again, weren't you?" The agent stared into my eyes. My eyeballs were going to be fried into ashes!
"Can I say yes and no?" I asked while still keeping a smile.
"Whatever. Just remember you have responsibilities and don't wreck the system. By the way, have you read the journal? code MTW212?" The agent asked and took a sip of tea.
"I'm going to read it now, busy, busy. Bye~" I said and rushed off.
"You haven't read it?! It's a 3000 page journal and I want a report on the table the day after tomorrow!" I heard him screaming his head off.
Day after tomorrow? Doom's day. Check to self.
Umm... not very sociable. I used to live in Pluto alone. Then... I... love reading, but nothing specific, just any book that interests me... I'm good at doing doodles. I love math too. I'm not very good at sports, lacking in agility. Clumsy at times. I have a wide range of ideas when it comes to logical nonsense. Okay, I try my best in doing it. I have a twin sister who's from mars but she's now a researcher on Earth. I've done different jobs on Saturn. Starting from delivering magazines, then onto selling fabrics and after that, working in a canteen. I don't have a specific stable job at the moment. I know that I'm still inexperienced and needed a lot more. So, I decided to join this secret agency. They took me in as a trainee and I met other trainees. We became very close. Although it's only a short while, we bonded very nicely. But we all have to go our separate ways someday right? So... they were promoted as agents and sent to different galaxies. I'm still here training, hoping that someday, I can go out on a mission as a highly skilled agent.
"Triel! What are you doing?" A high level agent approached me as I quickly exited the program.
"Hi Taylb...Nothing." I gave a smile.
"You were playing around with the talk-to-me program again, weren't you?" The agent stared into my eyes. My eyeballs were going to be fried into ashes!
"Can I say yes and no?" I asked while still keeping a smile.
"Whatever. Just remember you have responsibilities and don't wreck the system. By the way, have you read the journal? code MTW212?" The agent asked and took a sip of tea.
"I'm going to read it now, busy, busy. Bye~" I said and rushed off.
"You haven't read it?! It's a 3000 page journal and I want a report on the table the day after tomorrow!" I heard him screaming his head off.
Day after tomorrow? Doom's day. Check to self.
Life Of A Saturn's Agent: An Unexpected Call
The lights were flickering. She sighed, thinking it must be the power going weak. Tired out, she dragged herself from the office desk to the main switch box.
Her phone rang while she was checking the box of tangled wires and cables.
"Hello?" She answered weakly.
"Marshmallow." A familiar voice said the codeword.
"Marshmallow. How are you?" She answered back, smiling a little. It's been a long time since she heard the voice.
"You sound tired, Triel. Are you okay?" The voice on the other side did not answer her question but asked about her worriedly.
"Yes, tired. Night shift." She chuckled while closing the box since the power was stable again.
"Why stress yourself? Aish... anyway, I'm coming back, Triel. Just for a short period. I'm going back!" Triel's eyes widened at the news.
"Really? Chaehyun! Finally!" She exclaimed. Too happy to even bother about her tiredness.
"Yes! We are going out once I reach headquarters. Okay?"
"Okay." A smile formed.
"I have to go now, doing the stats report." Chaehyun said and they bid goodbye before ending the phone call.
Triel couldn't hide the smile on her face. How long has it been since Chaehyun left? A few months?
Her phone rang while she was checking the box of tangled wires and cables.
"Hello?" She answered weakly.
"Marshmallow." A familiar voice said the codeword.
"Marshmallow. How are you?" She answered back, smiling a little. It's been a long time since she heard the voice.
"You sound tired, Triel. Are you okay?" The voice on the other side did not answer her question but asked about her worriedly.
"Yes, tired. Night shift." She chuckled while closing the box since the power was stable again.
"Why stress yourself? Aish... anyway, I'm coming back, Triel. Just for a short period. I'm going back!" Triel's eyes widened at the news.
"Really? Chaehyun! Finally!" She exclaimed. Too happy to even bother about her tiredness.
"Yes! We are going out once I reach headquarters. Okay?"
"Okay." A smile formed.
"I have to go now, doing the stats report." Chaehyun said and they bid goodbye before ending the phone call.
Triel couldn't hide the smile on her face. How long has it been since Chaehyun left? A few months?
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Cut Scene: First Meeting
"You're Nick, yes?" A lady approached him. She looks like she's about late 20's... hair tied in a bun and a simple yellow t-shirt with black short pants. Quite a casual look for a voice that commands.
He nodded and gave a slight bow.
"We talked on the phone. I'm Cassie. Nice to meet you." She said and shook hands with him.
"Nice to meet you too."
After that, they went to Cassie's office.
"So, since today's your first day, I'll go easy on you. I'll be giving you a tour. Umm... do you have the forms?"
He handed her the forms which were then checked. After going through the papers, Cassie asked him for his portfolio. She flipped through it and Nick gave brief explanations about his works.
"You've been working for how many years?" She asked out of a sudden.
"I've been working part time jobs for 3 years. But this is a first time." He said honestly.
"You don't need to worry a thing. It'll be fun! Just relax." Cassie told him with a warm smile.
"Okay." He grinned.
"So here's a map, just in case. Since it is a big place." Cassie gave him a very colorful piece of paper.
"Basically, we have 3 floors. First floor is the offices, library and exam hall. Then, the second and third floors are the classes. Come, I'll show you." Cassie led him to the library which was the closest.
It was built under the school but the library is opened to the public. It was huge, air-coned, interestingly built shelves with a variety of books, a few computers around... The tables and chairs were designed oddly. Imagine Alice in Wonderland, the library style? There was a corner where about 20 children and a teenager were giggling.
"Hello everyone~ We have a new friend~" Cassie said and signaled Nick to talk a bit.
"Good morning everyone, I'm Nick. Hope we can learn together." He said formally.
After that, he talked to the children a bit. The teenager, Stella was telling them a new story she created. The class later continued as Cassie and Nick left.
"I hope you don't mind me asking, but how old is Stella?" Nick got curious since a young girl is put in charge of 20 children.
"We have a very unique system here, which I'll show you later. By the way, she's 15 years old. Stella's been teaching here for about 2 years now. She's one of the most talented authors I've seen too. You were quite good with the children, not bad for a first time." Cassie said.
"Thanks?" He said, still unsure.
"Relax, alright? You've got the job already, now just have fun." Cassie laughed a bit at how he's being nervous.
"The exam hall is not always an exam hall... We have some performances once in awhile, some exhibitions too." She showed him the hall which was empty at that time.
He nodded and gave a slight bow.
"We talked on the phone. I'm Cassie. Nice to meet you." She said and shook hands with him.
"Nice to meet you too."
After that, they went to Cassie's office.
"So, since today's your first day, I'll go easy on you. I'll be giving you a tour. Umm... do you have the forms?"
He handed her the forms which were then checked. After going through the papers, Cassie asked him for his portfolio. She flipped through it and Nick gave brief explanations about his works.
"You've been working for how many years?" She asked out of a sudden.
"I've been working part time jobs for 3 years. But this is a first time." He said honestly.
"You don't need to worry a thing. It'll be fun! Just relax." Cassie told him with a warm smile.
"Okay." He grinned.
"So here's a map, just in case. Since it is a big place." Cassie gave him a very colorful piece of paper.
"Basically, we have 3 floors. First floor is the offices, library and exam hall. Then, the second and third floors are the classes. Come, I'll show you." Cassie led him to the library which was the closest.
It was built under the school but the library is opened to the public. It was huge, air-coned, interestingly built shelves with a variety of books, a few computers around... The tables and chairs were designed oddly. Imagine Alice in Wonderland, the library style? There was a corner where about 20 children and a teenager were giggling.
"Hello everyone~ We have a new friend~" Cassie said and signaled Nick to talk a bit.
"Good morning everyone, I'm Nick. Hope we can learn together." He said formally.
After that, he talked to the children a bit. The teenager, Stella was telling them a new story she created. The class later continued as Cassie and Nick left.
"I hope you don't mind me asking, but how old is Stella?" Nick got curious since a young girl is put in charge of 20 children.
"We have a very unique system here, which I'll show you later. By the way, she's 15 years old. Stella's been teaching here for about 2 years now. She's one of the most talented authors I've seen too. You were quite good with the children, not bad for a first time." Cassie said.
"Thanks?" He said, still unsure.
"Relax, alright? You've got the job already, now just have fun." Cassie laughed a bit at how he's being nervous.
"The exam hall is not always an exam hall... We have some performances once in awhile, some exhibitions too." She showed him the hall which was empty at that time.
Monday, November 12, 2012
20121113
Hyesun ~ah
Where are you now? Heard you've gotten into that maze garden I made for you. Don't tell me you've gotten lost again? I haven't put the markers in the maze, mianhae. Hope you didn't get trapped in there for too long. Next time I go back, remember to tell me to make the markers for you, ne? We don't want to make you get lost for days, right? You don't want me to worry you, right? Remember last time I cried for days because you scared me? Don't make me cry until my eyes are sore, ne?
Heard from appa and omma that you're travelling a lot lately huh? Even thou you're suppose to take care of the garden while I'm gone. Don't make your twin sister angry ne? The garden needs love and care. You're the one that I can count on to take good care of the garden. Kamsahaminda~
Heard you're liking the new plant I found from Rum Island. Your friend told me about how you like it so much and cared for it. It's a lovely plant. Cherish it since it's hard to find it. You know the story~ I told you last time~
How's the weather there? It's near Christmas already! Is it raining candies? Or raining chocolates? Help me keep some of it please~
Remember we have this plan about building an out of this world school? Well, I met someone who's willing to sponsor for this project! Isn't this cool? Imagine students learning in outer space, floating with their things. And the astronaut food... I'm starting to do some research on making these new food for the children's choice. So far, I've made chocolate noodles. I don't know why, but the kids are loving it. I'll make one for you during Christmas to try. And did I mentioned? I'm coming home soon. Wait for me!!! I'd better see my garden all safe and sound~
I have to go now. The lab already has some newly baked jelly fries. I'm going to try them!
Love~
your twin from Pluto
Where are you now? Heard you've gotten into that maze garden I made for you. Don't tell me you've gotten lost again? I haven't put the markers in the maze, mianhae. Hope you didn't get trapped in there for too long. Next time I go back, remember to tell me to make the markers for you, ne? We don't want to make you get lost for days, right? You don't want me to worry you, right? Remember last time I cried for days because you scared me? Don't make me cry until my eyes are sore, ne?
Heard from appa and omma that you're travelling a lot lately huh? Even thou you're suppose to take care of the garden while I'm gone. Don't make your twin sister angry ne? The garden needs love and care. You're the one that I can count on to take good care of the garden. Kamsahaminda~
Heard you're liking the new plant I found from Rum Island. Your friend told me about how you like it so much and cared for it. It's a lovely plant. Cherish it since it's hard to find it. You know the story~ I told you last time~
How's the weather there? It's near Christmas already! Is it raining candies? Or raining chocolates? Help me keep some of it please~
Remember we have this plan about building an out of this world school? Well, I met someone who's willing to sponsor for this project! Isn't this cool? Imagine students learning in outer space, floating with their things. And the astronaut food... I'm starting to do some research on making these new food for the children's choice. So far, I've made chocolate noodles. I don't know why, but the kids are loving it. I'll make one for you during Christmas to try. And did I mentioned? I'm coming home soon. Wait for me!!! I'd better see my garden all safe and sound~
I have to go now. The lab already has some newly baked jelly fries. I'm going to try them!
Love~
your twin from Pluto
Sunday, November 11, 2012
Cut Scene: Nick and Jena
"Headache..." She told me, her eyes were still shut tightly. I pulled the curtains to stop the sunlight from blinding her eyes.
I had laid a small tray of breakfast at the dressing table in front of the bed. She still had her eyes closed even after sitting up. Her hair was a mess and she was still in her party dress. She was a mess. I warned her about getting herself sick yesterday night. But did she listen? No...
"Come on, drink." I passed her a glass of warm water.
"Thank you." She said smiling a bit but her eyes were still not opened.
"Come here, you have to get up now." I dragged her and carried her off the bed, making her stand up.
"Can I stay in bed today?" She pleaded and I gave her a cold no.
"You have class and a job. Now go get yourself cleaned up. You look horrible." I said while handing her a towel and shoving her into the toilet.
The phone downstairs rang and I rushed downstairs to answer it.
"Hello?" I was panting a bit and tried my best to control it.
"Hello. I'm Cassie, a representative from Jellies Art School. I'm looking for... Nick?" The caller on the other side had a smooth but commanding voice.
"I... I am. Yeah, I'm Nick." He stuttered a bit, wondering if his mind is still sane. He had went to this interview a few months ago and didn't receive any reply, nothing. At least, until now.
"We are happy to inform you that you have been accepted by the school. Sir, when can you start? Is next Friday okay?" Cassie told him the big news.
"Umm... Yeah. I'll start next Friday." He checked the calendar and agreed to it.
"Okay. The schedules and forms will be e-mailed to you. Please make sure to fill in the forms and bring the necessary documents. Is there any questions?" Cassie asked after giving the basic information.
"Nothing. Thank you Cassie." Nick said.
"That is all for now. Have a nice day sir." The phone call ended after that.
"Who was it?" I heard her voice and saw her all cleaned up and tidy. Finally, her eyes were open.
"I got accepted by the Jellies Art School." I smiled at her as her eyes widen.
"Really? Congratulations!" She said and gave me a hug.
"But that doesn't mean that I'll stop reprimanding you for yesterday night." I said sternly.
"I'm sorry... " She trailed off and started biting her lips.
"How is your headache?" I asked her.
"Not so much already." She said quietly.
"Go get an aspirin if you need it, okay?" I patted her head.
"Okay..." Guilt was written all over her face.
"I'm going out to get some groceries. You need anything?" I asked while taking my car keys.
"Emm... No."
"Bye." I got out of the house and went inside the car.
"Hmm... Jena... how am I going to be angry at you when your face makes me feel guilty?" I asked myself.
I had laid a small tray of breakfast at the dressing table in front of the bed. She still had her eyes closed even after sitting up. Her hair was a mess and she was still in her party dress. She was a mess. I warned her about getting herself sick yesterday night. But did she listen? No...
"Come on, drink." I passed her a glass of warm water.
"Thank you." She said smiling a bit but her eyes were still not opened.
"Come here, you have to get up now." I dragged her and carried her off the bed, making her stand up.
"Can I stay in bed today?" She pleaded and I gave her a cold no.
"You have class and a job. Now go get yourself cleaned up. You look horrible." I said while handing her a towel and shoving her into the toilet.
The phone downstairs rang and I rushed downstairs to answer it.
"Hello?" I was panting a bit and tried my best to control it.
"Hello. I'm Cassie, a representative from Jellies Art School. I'm looking for... Nick?" The caller on the other side had a smooth but commanding voice.
"I... I am. Yeah, I'm Nick." He stuttered a bit, wondering if his mind is still sane. He had went to this interview a few months ago and didn't receive any reply, nothing. At least, until now.
"We are happy to inform you that you have been accepted by the school. Sir, when can you start? Is next Friday okay?" Cassie told him the big news.
"Umm... Yeah. I'll start next Friday." He checked the calendar and agreed to it.
"Okay. The schedules and forms will be e-mailed to you. Please make sure to fill in the forms and bring the necessary documents. Is there any questions?" Cassie asked after giving the basic information.
"Nothing. Thank you Cassie." Nick said.
"That is all for now. Have a nice day sir." The phone call ended after that.
"Who was it?" I heard her voice and saw her all cleaned up and tidy. Finally, her eyes were open.
"I got accepted by the Jellies Art School." I smiled at her as her eyes widen.
"Really? Congratulations!" She said and gave me a hug.
"But that doesn't mean that I'll stop reprimanding you for yesterday night." I said sternly.
"I'm sorry... " She trailed off and started biting her lips.
"How is your headache?" I asked her.
"Not so much already." She said quietly.
"Go get an aspirin if you need it, okay?" I patted her head.
"Okay..." Guilt was written all over her face.
"I'm going out to get some groceries. You need anything?" I asked while taking my car keys.
"Emm... No."
"Bye." I got out of the house and went inside the car.
"Hmm... Jena... how am I going to be angry at you when your face makes me feel guilty?" I asked myself.
Friday, November 9, 2012
20121109 Last Day
never thought that... I'd be this clingy onto these 1 and a half year's of life...
can't say much, just that I'm clingy onto this life... this school life that I'll miss a lot.
The people... that I've come to know, befriended, and became close as family...
this crazy-short-termed, cramped-up-with-so-much-activities life...
can't write a long essay saying how much *something,something,something*
cause...
it's just...
it's just not possible for me to describe this feeling..
just indescribable...
can't say much, just that I'm clingy onto this life... this school life that I'll miss a lot.
The people... that I've come to know, befriended, and became close as family...
this crazy-short-termed, cramped-up-with-so-much-activities life...
can't write a long essay saying how much *something,something,something*
cause...
it's just...
it's just not possible for me to describe this feeling..
just indescribable...
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
Horror Not: Dark
"Help me!!!" She screamed for the hundredth time.
Silence.
She sighed, which turned into sobs of desperation.
"Why are you doing this to me..." She said to no one in particular.
She didn't know who would've wanted to do this to her. Her limbs were all chained up to the wall. She was in a dungeon. Only a small window twelve feet above had light coming in from it during the day. Other times, darkness surrounded her. Once i awhile... a few hungry mice or rats pass by, scaring the life out of her.
"Why me...?" She asked, looking above to see the web-covered walls and ceiling.
"Let me out..." She said weakly. She wanted to cry... but there were no tears anymore. She hadn't seen anyone for the past 5 days. Not eaten nor drink for the past few days... what is going on? She had no strength to ask anymore.
All she wanted was to get out of this place...
Silence.
She sighed, which turned into sobs of desperation.
"Why are you doing this to me..." She said to no one in particular.
She didn't know who would've wanted to do this to her. Her limbs were all chained up to the wall. She was in a dungeon. Only a small window twelve feet above had light coming in from it during the day. Other times, darkness surrounded her. Once i awhile... a few hungry mice or rats pass by, scaring the life out of her.
"Why me...?" She asked, looking above to see the web-covered walls and ceiling.
"Let me out..." She said weakly. She wanted to cry... but there were no tears anymore. She hadn't seen anyone for the past 5 days. Not eaten nor drink for the past few days... what is going on? She had no strength to ask anymore.
All she wanted was to get out of this place...
Saturday, November 3, 2012
20121103 Letter
Yah~ the one from Pluto~
Read Chemistry
Your way... way... lost
find the right track this time alright?
and stick to it.
Read Biology
You gotta start drawing or do something about it
it ain't gonna stay in your brain just by looking at it.
find a way
Chores
basic responsibilities
what you need and should do
Schoolwork
finish them
in time
and learn through the process
watch out the time as it passes
Out and away
get out and start jogging
staying indoors isn't going to help increase your endorphine levels
okay?
Gotta go now~
From Hyesun
Read Chemistry
Your way... way... lost
find the right track this time alright?
and stick to it.
Read Biology
You gotta start drawing or do something about it
it ain't gonna stay in your brain just by looking at it.
find a way
Chores
basic responsibilities
what you need and should do
Schoolwork
finish them
in time
and learn through the process
watch out the time as it passes
Out and away
get out and start jogging
staying indoors isn't going to help increase your endorphine levels
okay?
Gotta go now~
From Hyesun
Thursday, November 1, 2012
An Old Story: Basic Profile Of Trainees (Incomplete)
1. 19 Dancer Contemporary
started dancing since the age of 7. was scouted after failing to get into the audition. trained for 5 years. prefers classical music. quiet type of person. creates choreography for the group.
2. 19 Dancer Popping
taught to dance by friends. joined the company after winning an open competition. trained for 5 years. creates choreography for the group. strict when teaching dance. lazy to be bothered by anything else.
3. 19 Vocalist Ballad
is a born lyricist. was chosen through an audition. trained for 7 years. loves going out to get inspiration. composes songs. has a laid back personality.
4. 18 Vocalist R&B
got into the company through the singing audition. was the only one chosen out of 4000. trained for 2 years. is good at managing stress. does meditation as a habit.
5. 18 Leader, Vocalist Ballad
was scouted by the senior advisor of the company. trained for 6 years. born to be a leader. is respected by the elder members. given the responsibility to take care of the big group. is charismatic and decisive. is calm usually. occasionally gets freak out by the members' tricks
6. 18 Rapper
was chosen through audition. trained for 5 years. is daring. loves extreme sports. can be irrational at times. has a bit of a temper. has a soft spot for dogs.
7. 18 Dancer Acrobatics
encouraged by parents to try a different field with the reason acrobatics is too dangerous. Parents were worry of the long term effects. trained for 2 years. creates choreography for the group. is a creative person. is talkative. has a bit of a temper. is a disciplined person.
8. 17 Dancer Waltz
has won several dancing competition overseas. was scouted while joining a charity performance. trained for 2 years. loves travelling.
9. 17 Dancer Traditional
joined the school dance society. was recommended by a teacher to a friend who was a scouter. was the last to join the group. trained for 8 months. can dance both traditional and modern styles. has powerful moves.
10. 17 Dancer Ballet
was interested in ballet since young. had to be the top student in the school to be able to learn ballet. had received scholarship to study overseas but dropped it to become a trainee. trained for 3 years.
11. 17 Rapper
was supporting a friend in a audition. joined and got chosen. trained for 2 years. is a housewife by nature. cleans the dorm. has no temper, except when the group messes the dorm immediately after cleaning.
12. 17 Co-leader, Vocalist Trot
has a family with musical influence. parents are duet singers. joined singing competitions for several times before being chosen. trained for 3 years.
13. 17 Vocalist Rock
was chosen through an online audition. trained for 1 year. was to be a soloist. joined the group instead after being good friends with some of the members.
14. 16 Rapper
one of the twins. won an online dance competition. trained for 2 years. requested by parents to became a trainee only after getting good grades at school. is good at composing music.
15. 16 Rapper
one of the twins. won an online dance competition. trained for 3 years. is a smart one. is a trouble maker. loves to tease the other members.
16. 16 Dancer Hip-hop
learned to dance through the internet. dream is not supported by family. followed own instincts and believes that dance is the only thing wanted. joined the company after trying the audition for 8 times. trained for 4 years.
17. 15 Vocalist Jazz
joined the company and trained for 1 year. jazz lover. is learning the saxophone. has a bubbly character unlike the music style.
18. 15 Co-leader, Rapper
joined the company and trained for 2 years. is a good helper. good in persuading people. is mature than the age. is decisive. knows how to communicate with all members and get along well.
19. 15 Dancer Ballet
signed up for ballet since the age of 3. was scouted at a school performance. trained for 2 years. knows how to play the violin. loves reading.
20. 15 Maknae, Vocalist Rock
used to be in a rock band in primary school. was chosen after winning a song-composing competition. trained for 2 years. is a very innocent child. listens to the elders. has a habit of scaring the elders by screaming in the morning to warm up his voice.
started dancing since the age of 7. was scouted after failing to get into the audition. trained for 5 years. prefers classical music. quiet type of person. creates choreography for the group.
2. 19 Dancer Popping
taught to dance by friends. joined the company after winning an open competition. trained for 5 years. creates choreography for the group. strict when teaching dance. lazy to be bothered by anything else.
3. 19 Vocalist Ballad
is a born lyricist. was chosen through an audition. trained for 7 years. loves going out to get inspiration. composes songs. has a laid back personality.
4. 18 Vocalist R&B
got into the company through the singing audition. was the only one chosen out of 4000. trained for 2 years. is good at managing stress. does meditation as a habit.
5. 18 Leader, Vocalist Ballad
was scouted by the senior advisor of the company. trained for 6 years. born to be a leader. is respected by the elder members. given the responsibility to take care of the big group. is charismatic and decisive. is calm usually. occasionally gets freak out by the members' tricks
6. 18 Rapper
was chosen through audition. trained for 5 years. is daring. loves extreme sports. can be irrational at times. has a bit of a temper. has a soft spot for dogs.
7. 18 Dancer Acrobatics
encouraged by parents to try a different field with the reason acrobatics is too dangerous. Parents were worry of the long term effects. trained for 2 years. creates choreography for the group. is a creative person. is talkative. has a bit of a temper. is a disciplined person.
8. 17 Dancer Waltz
has won several dancing competition overseas. was scouted while joining a charity performance. trained for 2 years. loves travelling.
9. 17 Dancer Traditional
joined the school dance society. was recommended by a teacher to a friend who was a scouter. was the last to join the group. trained for 8 months. can dance both traditional and modern styles. has powerful moves.
10. 17 Dancer Ballet
was interested in ballet since young. had to be the top student in the school to be able to learn ballet. had received scholarship to study overseas but dropped it to become a trainee. trained for 3 years.
11. 17 Rapper
was supporting a friend in a audition. joined and got chosen. trained for 2 years. is a housewife by nature. cleans the dorm. has no temper, except when the group messes the dorm immediately after cleaning.
12. 17 Co-leader, Vocalist Trot
has a family with musical influence. parents are duet singers. joined singing competitions for several times before being chosen. trained for 3 years.
13. 17 Vocalist Rock
was chosen through an online audition. trained for 1 year. was to be a soloist. joined the group instead after being good friends with some of the members.
14. 16 Rapper
one of the twins. won an online dance competition. trained for 2 years. requested by parents to became a trainee only after getting good grades at school. is good at composing music.
15. 16 Rapper
one of the twins. won an online dance competition. trained for 3 years. is a smart one. is a trouble maker. loves to tease the other members.
16. 16 Dancer Hip-hop
learned to dance through the internet. dream is not supported by family. followed own instincts and believes that dance is the only thing wanted. joined the company after trying the audition for 8 times. trained for 4 years.
17. 15 Vocalist Jazz
joined the company and trained for 1 year. jazz lover. is learning the saxophone. has a bubbly character unlike the music style.
18. 15 Co-leader, Rapper
joined the company and trained for 2 years. is a good helper. good in persuading people. is mature than the age. is decisive. knows how to communicate with all members and get along well.
19. 15 Dancer Ballet
signed up for ballet since the age of 3. was scouted at a school performance. trained for 2 years. knows how to play the violin. loves reading.
20. 15 Maknae, Vocalist Rock
used to be in a rock band in primary school. was chosen after winning a song-composing competition. trained for 2 years. is a very innocent child. listens to the elders. has a habit of scaring the elders by screaming in the morning to warm up his voice.
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