Back To School 2010

Well, 2009 went a lot faster than anyone could expect. This year, it will be a tough year for Form 5 students. It's the SPM!! The marking system also changed. The last batch for the literature The Pearl, Putera Gunung Tahan and Antologi Kerusi.

The first week of school. Was like a bullet train at the maximum speed, wanting to hit me. Homework that I haven't even started was to be passed up by the last day of the week. Chemistry folio, English synopsis, Malay synopsis and Morale folio. That's only the first week!! There's also other homework, but not in a stack-of-file-form.

The other thing that made mad was that I was having thoughts again and AGAIN. The whole week... I suffered like crazy. Even shaking once...luckily no one noticed^^.

dream...hope...wish...that next week would be a lot better than the start of 2010. But I think I know how is it going to be...with sukantara again...

I wanna have fun...!!!!!!
[Everyone...please...please imagine that I'm not there...even if I'm acting like a 3 year old]

Holiday Will Be Ending...

I was standing there looking at my unfinished add maths homework. While going into my daydream state, I suddenly thought that it's been so long I have not taken a pencil and draw. Well.... maybe I've been feeling lonely...

A Very Very Long Pause

It's been so long since I wrote something here

well, let's see
not much to say
except that the time for this year is extremely fast
I couldn't catch up
I was only following the trail
that was left by it
I walk on and on
step by step
but I know that I can never catch up at this pace
so what
I'm enjoying the beautiful scenery
every small thing was captured
the beautiful ones
the breath taking ones
the touching ones
I even made friends
with pleasure
who thought me
to slow down
sometimes
take a deep breath
and understand desperation
whom I now cherish
as much as I cherish pleasure
they were by my side
teaching me to make everyday special
making my life
even better
...

** About the first line, this post was "moved" from another page of mine**

Once Again, My Bad Habit

Feeling a little tired these few days

thinking back about the past few weeks
found out that the problems that were in front of me
was one way or another caused by myself
those problems never got solved
somehow it just went away
after going through a very slippery and curvy lane
leaving a trail
that somehow couldn't be ridden of

mad at myself
I dug deep into my memory
and kept reprimanding myself
about the things that I have done
the things that I have done wrong
causing so much trouble
maybe even hurting someone along the way
so many wrong doings
I won't mind it leaving a scar on me
but what about the people around me

Aigoo
here I go with my very very childish thinking again
can I ever stop doing this
this is just wasting time
isn't it
I know
but how to stop this nonsense
this foolish way of life
always going back to the past
always mad at myself for the things
that can never be changed

After One Week Of Working

I did this for about one hour (not sure)
Totally random...
Today I don't need to work,
Finally a day at home after a week
But I don't know what to do
Suddenly I've got nothing, no schedule
I slept for a few hours late
After a meal,
I slept again
What am I going to do??
I don't want to be unhealthy!!
Help......
I can't control myself......

Haha