Monday, November 23, 2009

After One Week Of Working


I did this for about one hour (not sure)
Totally random...
Today I don't need to work,
Finally a day at home after a week
But I don't know what to do
Suddenly I've got nothing, no schedule
I slept for a few hours late
After a meal,
I slept again
What am I going to do??
I don't want to be unhealthy!!
Help......
I can't control myself......

Haha

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Year-end holiday , starts... now

Today would be my... fifth day of my first job. My friends and I went to find a job after the last exam paper. Actually there was suppose to be only two of us, but we didn't know where is the starting point, so we asked another friend to help us. She was more experienced and we were like umm.....I don't know, like the first time we learn to walk, having someone to guide us. Haha.

Well, I ended up getting a job at the clothing department and Ngoh got a job at the bags'. What I need to do is fold the messy shirts, blouses, pants... and of course, stand and not sit for at least 5 hours. I was really lucky as the promoters around me were friendly and helpful, I've got nothing to say. Well, except that my feet hurts me the next day. But I still need to go on, rite? I mean if I can't even stand 5 hours of work, what can I do? I have nearly zero talent, no skills!

Now that a quarter of my time is on my part-time job, I have less time on household chores. But my siblings! They don't even want to move if I don't tell them to. Arg.... I feel like stranggling myself sometimes because I took a job. There's so much to do at home, but I want to go out there and learn something. I want to overcome my phobia. I knew, even since I was in primary school that I have a problem in socialising, my father also told me. When talking to someone, I would always look downwards and never face them, which is very rude. I want to overcome this problem, so that I wouldn't be nagged (Haha) and can talk to other people confidently, not giving them bad impressions.

Well, another 1.5 month to go, Gambate!
Sweetie... I miss you... Hope we can meet again soon!
Love you.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

2-1=... (?_?) --> : ( -->(T_T)

Finally, the last day of the week, also a time to take a breath from the school year examination. I gotta say, it's been really tough going through this week. So many things happened, well, that's what I think.

It is always tough for us to stuff all the things that we need to memorize, cracking our brain to fit those vocabularies, definitions, formulas, phrases... ... But this time, I think I was emotionally out of control! Not mentally, that one I can still control, but emotionally, no way. I was nearly mad! Two days before the exam, something happened in school and somehow, I cried. I don't know why, but I was teary then I just couldn't stop. It was so embarrassing! In front of my friends. Well, of course I got a small scolding. Hehe...

I think it got even worst the next day. I was at home and doing revision. Another thing happened and the tap water started to run again. This time it took me 30 minutes to calm myself down. Soon, I started to have weird thoughts, I'll say that no one should know what they are. It was like I was soulless! I was scared, every single minute was so dark. The other thing is that I just can't study, I know I'll be blamed because it was just me not wanting to motivate myself. But I just couldn't! I was going bazookas!

Let's just say that I opened the tap water nearly everyday of the week (Only for last week!). My eyes were always painful the next day, o silly me... ...

But from today, I think I can close the water tap.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

...Finally I have achieved my greatest triumph

Hailey walked home with a bright smile. She just won herself a first place at a talent competition. She was going to tell her parents the very special news. But little did she know,that one news will change her peaceful 17 years forever.

"No, you will not waste your life on such a foolish thing as singing!" Hailey's father reprimanded her. "But, I know that singing is what I want to do, as my career, my life. I know you want me to be a doctor, but since the first time I sang in that competition, all I want to do in my life is sing!" said Hailey, hoping her father would understand. Yet her father refused to stand down, "if you want to sing, then don"t come home. You"ll learn that life is a lot more tougher outside this house, the real world."

Suddenly, Hailey ran in to her room. She took out the luggage and packed a few things. Also , she took her piggy bank. "I will do it dad, I will not come home, I will fulfill my dream. I"ll let you see that I am capable of becoming a singer in life,"she kept repeating. She carried her bag and walked into the living room. Hailey looked at her mother who was in tears , her father filled with rage and her innocent little brother. Without a word, she stepped out of the house into the dark, silent night.

She had no place to stay. It was already 11 o'clock at night, no one would want a doorbell ringing just when they're drifting into their dreams. She walked to a nearby bus station. Into a dark corridor she went, where smoke of a cigarette from a homeless man puffed. There were many beggars but she found a small corner to sleep for the night

"Girl... wake up...hurry up..."Hailey heard a voice, waking her up uncomfortable sleep. It was a cleaner from the bus station. "Sweetie, you better get away from here. This is not a place for you and the security guard will be chasing people," warned the cleaner while pushing a few bucks into Hailey's hand. Hailey thanked her and bid goodbye to the sweet old lady. She knew where to go next. She had to find a place to live first and knew where to look.

After an hour of walking and bus riding, Hailey stopped in front of a house. There was a board hanging on the gate, written "Rooms For Rent, call Mr. Shawn, o12-5335148". She didn't call anyone but knocked on the door. A voice answered from within the house, "come in." She went into the house and looked around. It was quite new, everything was clean and tidy. It was not what she had expected, especially from a man living alone. "From the looks of it, are you interested in renting a room?" the man called Shawn came out from the kitchen. Hailey answered, "yes, how much would I need to pay?" Shawn said it would cost 350 dollars per month. Hailey felt a little lucky because she had been saving for the past 2 years, her pocket money from the part time jobs.

The next day, Hailey rode a bus to the city center. She went straight to the place where she will be one step closer to fulfilling her dream. It was the XX Academy. This is the place that provides training and courses for people who have a talent in arts. She signed in and was accepted immediately as one of the trainers recognised her as the winner of the talent competition which was organised by the academy.

During her days in the academy, she learned many things, there were vocal trainings, dance classes, and even a course in financial management. But, a problem was coming up. The money she saved wasn't enough to cover the expenses on the course and the rent. So, she went and looked for a job as a part time cashier. It wasn't a pleasant job, standing for 6 hours with only a small pay. But she knew she had no other choice. It was enduring everything or accomplishing nothing.

Within a month, Hailey had gotten used to the hectic schedule, going for classes and working after that. By now, she was also feeling lonely too. Hailey missed her family, she had no one beside her, she was all by herself. Every night, she would hide in a corner inside her room and cry. She knew, she must not stop what she was doing, even when she was at her weakest moment. "I must not give up, never! " she repeated to herself.

"Hailey, you are ready," Elizabeth, Hailey's trainer told her. It was already 1 year and 3 months since Hailey walked into the academy. She shed into tears, after all the hardship, she is finally moving on with a big step. It was time for her to shine as a singer. A producer, a director, a composer, a choreographer, anyone you would need to make an album was called in. Hailey was to make an album of 10 songs. She was overjoyed, wanting to tell her father what she is going to do. But, she waited, "I must complete this task first, I am not done yet!"

Soon, the day came for Hailey to sing on stage, her first performance as a singer. By now, her album was selling at a very fast pace. Every person in the hall was anticipating, wanting to hear the voice that had touched their hearts. Hailey made sure the microphone was fine. Then, she went on stage. When she sang, only her voice was heard in the hall. The audience was quiet, mesmerised by the beautiful voice that echoed through their ears. Hailey looked into the audience and was surprised, but kept on singing. In the audience were the three faces that she missed for such a long time, the people that she cried for every night. It was her family. Tears rolled down her cheeks as she finished her song with "you are my only one and I love you" while looking at her family. Hailey went down the stage and ran into her father's arms. The father and daughter hugged and apologised to each other. "My daughter, please come home," said Hailey's father without letting her out of his arms. She hugged him tightly, saying "I will go home daddy." With a smile, she added, "daddy, finally, I have achieved my greatest triumph"

Monday, September 21, 2009

Second Day Of Holiday

Today......

I did nothing much...

Aunt Yong and her family, mmy sister, my mum went to the cinema to watch G-force. While they enjoy the popcorn, I stayed at home with dad.

Dad went out for breakfast and I had mine at home. Well, I got bored and pressed the remote controller to a channel that I might be interested to. And I turned to channel 8TV, what a shock I got when I recognized the setting... it was the show that I rarely get to see, now in front of me... was the encore of MNET MKMF from 2007. I had to do the laundry, but I also want to drunken myself with the performance...

Do you know what I did? The weirdest thing anyone could have done in that situation. I did the laundry when the host were talking or during commercial breaks. I was running here and there, carrying the bucket of clothes. If someone were to see me at that time, I swear that they'll be laughing their heads off!

I locked myself in the house the whole day...maybe boring to others.....but it's heaven to me...hehe...sometimes...